The Sound of Forehands Clapping

I’m what some would call a dreamer. I have a vision of myself doing great things. I’m talking about being a loving and understanding leader to my wife, a compassionate and patient father, an exemplary employee and a wise and trustworthy friend. A man who is above reproach, who stewards his time and energy and money in a exemplary manner.

These are good desires that I see rooted in Scripture. Don’t get me wrong these desires are at times tainted with pride “… imagine what people would think of me then!” but I usually fight that and humility is provided. I know that God has called me to these things and that these are not man made ideas. I know that if He is the one calling me to them then these, and nothing I could come up with, must be the best path for me to joy.

Often though I feel stupid for having these dreams and these hopes. “You’re a failure. You think big but you produce small. You fail, because your heart is wicked. You aren’t fooling God.” I often feel like I am at a fork in the road: path 1) just give up, and path 2) continue pretending that you’re a good Christian.

Sometimes I take path 1 and sometimes I take path 2. Sometimes though something else happens. Gods grace meets me at that fork in the road. He says path 3 Dwayne is through me. Your heart is wicked, but my blood was shed for this and is provided by my spirit to change you. Awake and remember! Give up your strength. Here is mine.

Awhh, the easy yoke is found again!

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